crash landing...

after 55 hours travelling i made it back to melbourne. feels surreal being here, wonderful and difficult. I'm enjoying seeing the coty with new eyes, and taken note of things that before would have past me by. it feels exciting but hard at the same... damn its ok to be emo.

the weather is glorious.. my pore pale german skin keeps getting burnt but the sun and salt of the beach is wonderful. Melbourne does have a beach. i was a st kilda snob but i,m totallz reformed, pretty special to reach a beach just by tram.

Rockstrip was an intense yet wonderful experiences. seeing my best mate for the first tiem on stage was pretty crazy, almost got up to hug him. Having a female rock band bang out the live tunes for a queer strip shows is a pretty spectacular concept... great to see inspiring queers on my second night in this country.

getting out... 01

I sat with my father in a falafel restaurant around the corner from my home in Kreuzberg (only for another 9 days:-( ). And for the first time we talked a little about the fact that since he has visited me in Berlin everyone refers to me as He. And he does too. Well almost all the time, I guess he realised that it was a little more serious when we both walked into the same toilet at the Gallery. Before it was just howit was for me, I was affraid and to articulate gender and sex on a political and personal level... guess we will take it slowly.

I just can out to my mum via email as a He. I wish that I could be everywhere and in Melbourne so that her and I could go to the Transdestinations conference:
http://www.gasworks.org.au/festivals/transdestinations2008.php

Richard in Berlin

Hey mum, promise I'm taking good care of Richard here!... here are some photos from new years and on the U-bahn.(u remember?) Today he is off to see the Daniel Libeskind Jewish Museum while I organise stuff, prepare for return (ie which jeans I will bring home) and do some study, and organise crafting and diferent fun things for my last two weeks... look forwad to your fig jam!!

Barshelonya

Isa, Jess & Felix: "testing chairs"
Gaudi: "really big church with frogs and snails"
Jess & Marti : "on a hill"


Gaudi: "hanging model"
sometimes exhibitions are mindblowing: Erina Matsui from Japan (www.obieg.pl)

Blue Velvet Pony Girl wit "Gramps' stil got it , yeah"

Gramps has still got it... Both grandpa stan and fooks. was to get on stage and say good bye to 2007. The best part of the show was colllabarting with wonderful Pony Girl and Velvet... bit of fun between friends, and with a very appropriate anti-ageist undertone! Was the first New years spend away from the beach with all my lovely homies around me. first time in a city since being 18.. and what a city... decribed best as a warzone as the clocks ticks over to 2008 as every child and grandma lights there own fireworks, a haze of smoke settles through out the city and red dye from the paper covers the streets for days after.
It snowed here the forst dy of 2008, which was lovely for drinking more mulled wine. Glühwien whcih is the savour of christmastime in Germany. Christmas was spent down south, gettin some real german tradition up me... if it wasn,t for the snowboardin and isa i could have done with out it!

Northern Italy

Isa and Marti poland, netherlands, italy, bavaria and should have gone to Morrocco. I love traveling with Isa. Our different interests together meant we always saw so much... and we always managed to eat somzink varm! Tourism is a nasty path which can drag you in and through a city, seeing the place like everyother visitor. We always see that but much more...

Budapeshht

Wilhelmshagen Wald

Isa, Jess, Dango and I had an adventure to a forest to frollick amongst the nature and the Autumn and leaves and stuff. It was totally lovely to get out of city and breathe fresh air for a bit. Berlin doesn,t overwhelm me physically so sometiems I forget i need to get so nature in me! We even saw a woody wood pecker! It had a bright red belly. It totally fun being in a yellow forest, although some parts where bright red... We adventured of the path and after a while we stumbled upon, well we dont know what exactly. But old bunkers. We wreckoned must be from DDR keeping poeple in and out. But it was really crazy everthing just still there. Hooks to old not only one electric wire fence but for at least 10 cables. Bizarre... these abrubtly abandoned spaces till laying dormant in the forest, grown over by nature and graffiti artists.

polyFest

this week there has been a lights festival, and a porno festival and a trans conference and .. there always just so much shit happening here. ! but the light festival was quite cool. they lit up the alex with crazy big light. and also the brandenburg Tor. and the big Berliner Dome church.- they projected spots of red and blue over it . that looked amazing. its always worth going around this city at night, kooky things just are happening.
i really love alex, its like this total tourist icon but i love it. and what people do with it. create images out of it. it orientates me wherever i am in this city. project lights on it and its beautiful. and the lift in it is crazy fast i only lasted 10 minutes up there for the 8€ i paid! damn vertigo.
one morning we where on the top of isa,s apartment block. we watch morning and mist take of the city. from the top of her apartment which is 6 floors the view is flat. ... all the building s the same size. so i feels like standing on top of the city., there is no height here. except for alexanderplatz of course, and the random new tall buildings., but they are not together. so there is no centre. this city of Poly-centric. as i have heard it being described. but its true. Mitte, Zoologischer Garten, Kreuzberg, eberswalders... Poly Centre,s
Its getting cold here. i,ve bought a big coat to prepares. and i dontthink its long before i start wearing longjohns! the cold is quite nice though i guess. it just sucks beocoming dark so early. thats the worst. but its fun wearing gloves and big coats.

herbst und Arzthaus

views from Anna hospital bedroom...

Blues US Adventure 2007

New York
officially confirmed that little plastic camera of the photographic project titled "27 photos, New York, 7 days" was offically lost on a flight 209 new york to Kansas City.
San Fran



hanging out with phe is san fran was a right bloody hoot. taught me to appreciate craft. a passion which i have brouight to berlin adn use weekly for community and political purposes... slogan for this week - "craft or die"

sabotaged anti-geburtstag birthday

sausages.. hmm the explanation, is these where a part of the national garden show the year in germany... they helped me become a vegetarian. am i dedicated designer jeepers i actually beleive that these oversized wursts on top of a hill changed my diet. well whatever did it i,m a proud pro-vegan.

Velvets Wedding

the boat trip down the nice kanal,s of amsterdam.

It was really special to go to this wedding, not for the sake of marriage, but for the sake of this little international queer community. solidarity for women withouts papers..

Hamburger Burgers

i was in Hamburg with sean for a scream club gig that he,s been on the orga for. One day we thought we would be sporty and so we jumped in some 30 year old kyaks and paddled out into the harbuor! way totally hilarious because there where massive (like bigger than the city sized) ships honkin gat us n stuff. and saun and i where there going around in circles.. then the cops came.. was so funny because at this stage i was freaking out a little and saun and i where screaming at each other so then i just screamed at the cops! lucky they didnt understand my slang.. they where telling me to coem close to there boat and i was yelling "what the fuck. as if i,m coming near your fucking boat. no fucking way....!!!" then desperately tried to paddle away, but it was quite futile considering it was against the current....! but it was totally fun way to be an anti-tourist...
bloody real tourists where taking photos of the hooligans in kyaks!

She Trigger Photography...

these amazing photos where taking by a mate of mine at the DTM march. i,ve put up the link to Finn,s website to see other photos he,s taken. mostly of queer and feminist subjects, he;s work is totally amazing, and phtography is usually my least favourite medium, but with people like Phe and Finn in my life i think i can be persuaded.
and i have to say is thank you Mum for bringing my red heels all the way from down under. and also my runners, i,ve been runnning along the kanal. trying to catch the last of the sun just before it fades away. winter is coming ergh..!

DykeTransMarch2007

The demo is done, i dont know how to explain. it was a long road. i had many problems with political tactics and views. Although in no way do i disregard my entire experience of this demo. I met some wicked friends and now doing more projects with them, and it introduced me to a politcal queer feminist crew of berlin. however it seems i picked one of the most confused, disagreeing groups!! This is not totally negative because although i disagreed with many people in every discussion there was always a new view or politcal angle to consider. in fact i think in some way the people i have met through the group are amazingly strong minded, tough and confident queer and feminist people. each with an abiltiy to redefine sexuality and gender in their own way. so therefore the disagreements whre inadvertently deconstucting gender...


HOWEVER CLOSETS KILL... When it comes down to it i left this politcal group 2 weeks before the demo. i still am not sure quite who was welcome at the demo, the party. what the demands where. who the demo was direted at... lost in translation, transitioning into lost, transmission faulty.. get got good. debates are good but with no resolution shit like this can happen.